Where do I stand?

I’ve been thinking about blogging ever since I saw the movie Julie and Julia.  I loved the fact that Julie didn’t think she had anything good to say, but needed to find a purpose in life.  I really liked that movie and I thought to myself, if she can do it, why not me?  Ever since then (it’s been about a year since I’ve seen that movie) I’ve been wondering what I could write about.

My whole family has incredible talent.  We have a couple artists, a baker and business managers.  I fall into one or more of these categories but I want a category all of my own.  I want my talent to stand out where people seek me out for that talent.  I keep convincing myself that I do have a place in this world.  I’m a stay-at-home mom where I take care of my family with 2 young children and 5 step children (who are all now adults), I manage the household, schedules and I volunteer.  And I still think…. Where is my place in the world?  The other side of my brain argues with me all the time.  I DO have a place in the world.  I’m a mother.  I’m a damn good mother!  I love my family and I would turn myself inside out for them.  I do everyday.  But there are so many mothers out there who do what I do.  I want to find that talent that I’m good at, not along with millions of other people.

I write what I know.  Is there anyone out there who would be interested in what I write about?  Maybe.  Do I care?  Should I care?  Not really.  Perhaps, someday, my children will be interested in what I have to say.  In the meantime, I will pray and strive to find that talent I know I’m good at.  I will be a great mom until I find that one thing I’m good at.  Only in God’s time will my place be put out there with what God sees fit…. and I’m going to love it!