"I won't be old until I'm 92, and then I won't have to be old because I'll still walk to Bingo everyday."
Part of my Happiness Project was to learn how to crochet. I wanted to make my own scarf and hat for this winter. I'm a little behind on my schedule but at least I got something accomplished. I asked a good friend of mine to come over and teach me how to crochet. I ran off to the store to buy all the yarn I needed, crochet hooks and a threading needle expecting to whip out at least a hat in one afternoon. Much to my dismay, I didn't get very far. It took all afternoon just to get a basic stitch down. My fingers didn't want to cooperate with me and I swore the yarn didn't like me either.
I wanted to give up. I almost did. But I don't give up. It's not in my nature. Besides quitting the track team in 7th grade because not only was I horrible at track,I hated it and I haven't given up on anything since. Ever.
I had a battle in my mind:
"Give it up! You'll never get it..."
"Don't you give up. You'll get it. Keep trying..."
"Forget it. I don't have time for this stupid crap. I should just pay someone to make a scarf for me...."
"This scarf will be great and you'll love it..."
"Don't let the girls see you give up on something..."
I was almost in tears a few times. I took huge chunks of my scarf out to re-do it several times. I knew it wasn't going to be perfect but I wanted it to be something I'd be proud to wear. I was about 3/4 of the way done when it finally clicked for me. You can see it in the photo:
So I started looking up patterns to make a hat and all those frustrated feelings came back. I even tried Youtube, (which I hate) but since I've got a basic stitch down, I thought I could follow a simple youtube video on how to make a hat.
I can do this! I can!