I’ve been thinking about blogging ever since I saw the movie Julie and Julia. I loved the fact that Julie didn’t think she had anything good to say, but needed to find a purpose in life. I really liked that movie and I thought to myself, if she can do it, why not me? Ever since then (it’s been about a year since I’ve seen that movie) I’ve been wondering what I could write about.
My whole family has incredible talent. We have a couple artists, a baker and business managers. I fall into one or more of these categories but I want a category all of my own. I want my talent to stand out where people seek me out for that talent. I keep convincing myself that I do have a place in this world. I’m a stay-at-home mom where I take care of my family with 2 young children and 5 step children (who are all now adults), I manage the household, schedules and I volunteer. And I still think…. Where is my place in the world? The other side of my brain argues with me all the time. I DO have a place in the world. I’m a mother. I’m a damn good mother! I love my family and I would turn myself inside out for them. I do everyday. But there are so many mothers out there who do what I do. I want to find that talent that I’m good at, not along with millions of other people.
I write what I know. Is there anyone out there who would be interested in what I write about? Maybe. Do I care? Should I care? Not really. Perhaps, someday, my children will be interested in what I have to say. In the meantime, I will pray and strive to find that talent I know I’m good at. I will be a great mom until I find that one thing I’m good at. Only in God’s time will my place be put out there with what God sees fit…. and I’m going to love it!